As I'm sitting at my computer still awake at 11:45pm, I felt compelled to post on my blog about how lucky I am to be a mom to three beautiful children I have been blessed by God with.
I tend to think that I am way too hard on them many times and I find myself struggling to find that happy medium between not letting them get away with everything and being that cool mom you can always count on.

I think it comes down to the fact that I have a hard time letting go...Brian is in first grade and seems to be taking many steps towards being more independent each day. I feel like he sometimes acts like he doesn't need me, even though I know he does. I am amazed at how smart he is. He's very kind, gentle and loving towards everyone he meets. Except for the occasional brawl with his sister - Katie. He looks up to his dad, whom he adores and wants to be just like him when he grows up. I'm thinking he might be an architect someday, because he can make any creation out of a pile of legos in a matter of minutes. The imagination he has is overwhelming to me.

Katie...what can I say! She is quite the little princess and is trying to spread her wings just as much as Brian is. She gets very frustrated with me at times, because I don't allow her to do everything that her big brother does. She is very stubborn, which I'm not sure what side of the family she gets that from...ha, ha!!! She loves to show her little sister how to do many things. She may be quick to get angry, but she always seems to come back with an even quicker apology. She also is very loving towards all her friends and by friends she also includes all those children she meets for the occasional 30 minute play time at the park. Damon and I know we are going to have our hands full with this one!!

Last but certainly not least...Emily or Emi Lou as I call her. She is such a neat combination of both Brian and Katie. She carries a lot of the same traits that they have. Like Brian, she seems to be very smart and quick to pick things up. She is like Katie in that she has the same smile, her amazing likeness and her lovingness towards babies.
I know that I may not be perfect in raising my children, but I'm not sure if anyone is. What I do know is that I love them all equally and I can't imagine my life any other way. They are such a blessed gift and I feel so lucky that God has allowed me to be a mother.
This may seem like a ridiculous posting; however, I just needed to put down in writing what I was feeling, so at least someday, my kids will know that even though I do get upset with them and make them follow rules, it is only because I love them and want them to grow up being the best they can be. Right now, I am always accused of ruining their life and it's not fair! I have to think back to my childhood and I can remember saying those things to my parents a time or two. Now I get it! It's all done out of love!